[ open post ]

[2804]

Comments

[beatsfor]

Technically, I think English is my second language. Sarcasm is third.

[2804]

Okay, fine. But sarcasm is your strongest language.

[beatsfor]

Can't argue with that. Maybe I was thinking an ego the size of Pangaea, instead.

[2804]

That is pretty big, yeah. I think I could agree to that. But at least I know how to use my ego.

[beatsfor]

I won't argue with that, either.

[2804]

Oh, it's fun when you're so pliant and agreeable. I could make you do anything.

[beatsfor]

Almost anything.

[2804]

Almost anything?

What wouldn't you do for me?

[beatsfor]

What I can't.

[2804]

( okay, yes.

she hadn't been thinking of that but...yes. she knows that. )

I know, Rio. I know. It's all right.

[beatsfor]

[Maybe a day will come it doesn't spring to mind so immediately for her, in a few more hundred years.]

Is it?

[2804]

It is.

It's fine, Rio.

[beatsfor]

[...] Okay.

I missed you so much.

[2804]

I know, baby.

I missed you too. Even when I told myself I didn't.

[beatsfor]

I don't blame you for not admitting that.

[For the hiding, maybe, but not for telling herself she didn't.]

[2804]

I just thought I could convince myself.

That I didn't miss you. And other things. That I didn't other things you too.

( she doesn't want to say she tried to tell herself that she didn't love rio because she doesn't want to hurt her further. )

[beatsfor]

[Oooof.]

I guess I'm just relieved and glad you failed.

[2804]

Yeah.

I'm sorry.

[beatsfor]

Me too.

[2804]

What I'm trying to say is that all the convincing I tried to do didn't work. It won't ever work.

Because I won't ever not love you.

[beatsfor]

I never wanted

I won't ever not love you, either.

[2804]

I know.

You're stubborn that way. That's not a complaint.

[beatsfor]

I am. But even if I weren't - some things are permanent. Not much, but some.

[2804]

You're permanent.

( and she wasn't. it's something she tries not to think too much about but sometimes, her mind gets the best of her. )

[beatsfor]

You're permanent, too. Seared on whatever I have in place of a soul.