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It is.

It's fine, Rio.

[beatsfor]

[...] Okay.

I missed you so much.

[2804]

I know, baby.

I missed you too. Even when I told myself I didn't.

[beatsfor]

I don't blame you for not admitting that.

[For the hiding, maybe, but not for telling herself she didn't.]

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I just thought I could convince myself.

That I didn't miss you. And other things. That I didn't other things you too.

( she doesn't want to say she tried to tell herself that she didn't love rio because she doesn't want to hurt her further. )

[beatsfor]

[Oooof.]

I guess I'm just relieved and glad you failed.

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Yeah.

I'm sorry.

[beatsfor]

Me too.

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What I'm trying to say is that all the convincing I tried to do didn't work. It won't ever work.

Because I won't ever not love you.

[beatsfor]

I never wanted

I won't ever not love you, either.

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I know.

You're stubborn that way. That's not a complaint.

[beatsfor]

I am. But even if I weren't - some things are permanent. Not much, but some.

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You're permanent.

( and she wasn't. it's something she tries not to think too much about but sometimes, her mind gets the best of her. )

[beatsfor]

You're permanent, too. Seared on whatever I have in place of a soul.

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You need to stop saying things like that when you're not in front of me.

[beatsfor]

'fraid I'm going to say things like that to you whenever I think them, no matter where I am.

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But you should also be in front of me more than you are.

[beatsfor]

Okay. I'll work on that.